Why is MJ's death making me like this...?

When I heard about his death, I was deeply saddened, but not enought to cry. Then about 2 days later, I started getting very emotional. I feel like a loser for acting like this over a celebrity's death, but it's really making me upset... like, I'll be sooo happy and cheerful with my friends or something then when I hear his name on the tv or if it crosses my mind i start to cry a little. Don't criticize me... I just want to know how his death affected you.